Episodic Memories...LOL!!!

• Dad dropping me off at preschool
• Talking with grandma
• Choking grandma's baby chicks
• Stealing $100 that was for the light bill
• Almost getting hit by a black cadillac when I was 5
• Getting stuck on the monkey bars
• Getting 3 whoopings in one day
• Having my 2nd birthday bash
• Getting a lot of things for Christmas
• Kissing a boy in the closet in Kindergarten
• Being teacher's pet every school day of my life
• Getting in trouble for calling my brother a bastard
• Going to FunFest every summer
• Being spoiled by mommy
• Crying because my father told me I wasn't his child
• Mama and daddy fighting
• Relocating for two days because of the fight
• Daddy shooting at my brother
• Getting all A's in school
• My first fight in the 9th grade
• The positions I held in high school
• Cheerleading
• Going to my grandma's funeral and being the last person to see her

Damn!...I'm Losing Myself In Material Things

At Bath and Body Works looking for the lastest lip gloss
"What the hell are you buying that shit for?"
How many haters can I gain in one day I wonder....hmmm?
Just because I'm an African-American woman doesn't mean I don't want to look like the 20 year old Mary Kay
Just let me be MYSELF.
MYSELF ONLY.
Have I decided on who I really am?
Yes, I am a make-up, t-shirt, shorts, flip flops, CD, and the list can go on forever SHOPPER that lives on every isle in Wal-Mart
Do you ever think they'll kick me out since they see me about sixteen times a day!
Where are my next pair of shoes gonna come from?
You're thinking, "I'm Not Buying Them"
I'm thinking, "I'm Not Gonna Ask Your Broke ASS to Buy Shit For Me!"
I'm like Lil' Webbie, I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T
Some people really don't know what that mean
Just got my nails done and ready to hit the streets of Daytona
Can I get an AMEN!
Yall know you wanna go but you're too afraid to let your parents know that you don't care about what they think.
You better get over that shit and DO YOU!!!

Letter to Me(Age 14)

Hey Fast-Ass,

During this age in your life, you're gonna go over and through a lot of emotional roller coasters. You're gonna find yourself going through phases you never knew existed such as "the crazy in love" phase (Beyonce Style), "the dress-to-impress" phase (Give it up for the next Tyra Banks), and "the Ms. Know-it-All" phase (I wish I knew as much as Condoleeza Rice---5 languages is a lot of crap to remember!!!). I'm writing you this letter to tell you to slow it down. Why are you so eagerto get grown and leave your mom's house? I know you're tired of the fussin' and cussin' that she does every day, but you'll eventually learn that it's for a good cause. I know you enjoy going to school and participating in every activity thatyou could possibly can, but do realize, you only get these bright memories once. Once you leave high school, there's no turning back to being a teenager again. Of course I know you have a "Mr. Right" (he's actually a "Mr. I Wanna Get In Your Pants") in your life right now, but all of that can wait because you have you whole life ahead of you right now. You can't afford to lose everything good taht you have going for yourself.
I remember at the age of 12, you asked yourself what was really your goal in life. You had the most highest dreams of wanting to be a doctor. So, believe in yourself and be not discoraged.

The one that loves you most,
YOURSELF